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I am married to my loving husband for more than 38 years now. I am a mother to 3 beautiful children, until 11 years ago when I lost my youngest son. Since then my life is forever altered but yet unbroken....

Monday, 28 August 2006

Double celebrations

"As you move forward, don't allow apprehension to get you in its grip..."

The children received their scrolls last weekend. Luckily their convocations fall on different days, if not we would have to split. IIUM 22nd Convocation was on Saturday through Monday and Sara was in the 2nd session on Saturday afternoon, 26 August 2006. UTP 6th Convocation was on 27 August 2006 and Iwan and Ella received their scrolls on that Sunday morning.

You’ve graduated
genuine smiles, relief sighs
and pride in our hearts
thrills of dreams come true
Enjoy the day
bask in the bright sun
The honor is yours,
we'll all share the fun.

To Sara, Iwan & Ella

Thursday, 24 August 2006

Bidara house break-in...

“You always have a choice. It's just that some people make the wrong one…” - Nicholas Sparks

Last night, when we went to our Bidara house to retrieve bags and some clothes, we were in for a shock.

Someone had gone through our bedrooms and ransacked our drawers and cupboards and left our belongings scattered all over the floor. Our house was broken in through the sliding door. We suspect that the house has been marked, as nobody was at home most of the time. Most probably the burglars forced open the grill and sliding door during the day because most people in the neighborhood would be out working.

We decided to stay the night there but Sara was not keen on sleeping in her room alone and called Iwan to fetch her and sent her back to Putramas apartment.

This morning he skipped work and lodged the police report. The police took pictures of the crime scenes. When we checked what were taken, we found out that one old lap-top and 3 cameras were stolen together with a few of his watches. I think they have taken a lot more but we are yet to confirm what else are missing…

Monday, 21 August 2006

Durian party...

“It doesn't take a whole long life to realize that what we deserve to have, we rarely get…” -  Jodi Picoult

That night after the Wedding reception, we had satay Kajang for dinner with our Singaporean relatives. They ended up sleeping in our Putramas apartment as all hotels were fully booked, mostly by the Arabs. To allow them to have some privacy we spent the night at our Bidara house instead. Iwan and Ella had Ella’s parents and sister staying with them at their Mandy Villa and Sara slept over at one of her goonies house in Bangsar.

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(Abundance of fruits for the party)

The week before, when asked whether I’ll be joining the department for picnic and durian party outing at Impian Rimba, Ulu Langat, I was not very certain at first as I envisaged us to be busy with unfinished business. But I’m glad that we could join them even for a short while. The serene cool ambiance of the dusun and the riffling sound of the nearby stream, relaxed tired bodies and unruffled cluttered minds.

(Eating durian with Linda by the stream)

There were varieties of durians, D14, D11, the red prawn and a lot were nameless. I didn’t keep track of how much I ate, but I ate a lot. There were also mangosteen, duku and rambutans by the basket load. While the adults were busy gobbling the durians and other fruits, the children had fun in the nearby stream.

(Cooling off in the cold water)

That night, sweating profusely, we slept with the air-con at full blast. Panasss…

Thursday, 17 August 2006

There's always you...

“Nothing can dim the light which shines from within…” - Maya Angelou

There's always you

I’m glad there’s you to hold my hand,
to share my dreams and understand.
I’m glad there’s you to make me smile,
To have some fun and laugh a while…

I’m glad there’s you to dry my tears,
To hear my thoughts and calm my fears.

I’m glad there’s you to help me cope,
To share your strength and give me hope…

For all you are, and all you do,
I’m glad there’s always you!

p.s. Yang, Happy Birthday. I love you forever…

Wednesday, 16 August 2006

Happy Birthday...

“Destiny is not a matter of chance; it is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved…” - William Jennings Bryan

The NCAC meeting was smooth. Although new to the game, the lady AG was cool in conducting the flow of the meeting. There were decisions that need the management and the Board approval and the team is working hard towards demanding datelines.

Today is hubby's birthday and we planned to have a family dinner together. The Kofuku Japanese Restaurant in Pan Pacific is comfortable and warm. The high glass window provides a scenic view of the landscaped Japanese garden. We had teppanyaki of luscious and mouth-watering lobsters, scallops, fish and meat. For dessert, at the Putramas apartment, we indulged in sumptuous, rich creamy walnut carrot cake.

Later in the wee hour in the morning before we sleep, I asked hubby what he wants for his birthday.

“I do not want anything.. I already have everything I want. And I have you, Yang….”

Saturday, 12 August 2006

Blue is the theme...

"Happiness is like a kiss…you must share it to enjoy it..."

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Alhamdulillah… Iwan’s wedding reception went pretty well

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It was just a small cozy affair between family and close friends. This wedding reception provided us the opportunity to express ourselves in a simple way, to gather family from near and far and to bring together our friends, old and new.

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My heartiest gratitude and deepest appreciation to those who have helped us plan the reception, to our parents, family and relatives, for their love, support and blessings.

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To all our dearest friends, who are too many to mention here but each one equally important, thank you for the company and the laughter you bring to our hearts.

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To those who were not present that day, we thank you too for your wonderful wishes and prayers...

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Tuesday, 8 August 2006

Attaining happiness...

“Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer…” - Barbara Kingsolver

It was already 1.15 a.m. The Balinese music in the background brought peace to the still of night. While holding each other close, the tranquility of the night relaxed our tired bodies, soothed away the muscle aches. The pain of the body is often bearable, not so is the pain of the heart.
At a lost and not knowing what to do, the feelings of confusion and isolation haunted me. As always I refrain from showing my emotions, but tonight, these silent tears I want to share with him. We reflected on the past, happy and sad and talked about the hectic upcoming events ahead of us.

The excitement of planning and preparing for Iwan’s wedding reception, the priority for our presence at both Iwan’s and Sara’s convocations, which dates fall on the same weekend. The concern for Sara to attend her PTD assessment training at INTAN in Kluang just days before we fly for our Umrah and holiday in Abu Dhabi. The feeling of disappointment when Iwan and Ella couldn’t join us for the Umrah and holiday as Iwan is unable to obtain approval for long leave. The grief that Ja is no more here to be with us and share all these excitements.

Tonight before we went to sleep he recited a very nice poem by Max Ehrmann. It is about attaining happiness and true reflection of life...


Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

(Max Ehrmann 1927 )

Friday, 4 August 2006

Crowded mind...

"Life is what's happening when you're too busy to notice." - Wayne Muller

Lately, I have lost the rhythm between work and rest. Where have all my precious time gone to? At the end of the day, I feel depleted, stressed, frustrated, and pulled in every direction. If I glance at my diary, I am booked solid for the next two weeks, with little or no time to rest. In between court cases, meetings and appointments, I struggle to catch up with projects, reports, phone calls, correspondence, e-mail, etc.

With this pace, I feel like I am running on empty, wreak havoc physically and emotionally....

"If you're burning the candle at both ends,
you're not as bright as you think you are."