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I am married to my loving husband for more than 38 years now. I am a mother to 3 beautiful children, until 11 years ago when I lost my youngest son. Since then my life is forever altered but yet unbroken....

Wednesday, 28 April 2010

Sick to the bone…

"I am just not in a generally good frame of health now..."

I don’t really fall sick very often but when it happens it can be scary.

I started having high fever while we were travelling down south. It got worse when everyone was complaining of warm humid night, I was shivering and rattling bones under the thick blanket. Agonising pain numbed my senses. It was not only the fever that made me go nuts, the throat was inflamed raw and made it hard even to swallow my own saliva. The high fever prolonged for several days. When my blood sample was taken for further test, I was expecting the worst. For a moment there, I thought I had H1N1 or dengue fever But when the result came and the doctor declared that I only have normal flu and bad tonsillitis, I was overly relieved.

The bad throat is still swelling, I guess it just may take me a while to taste good food again…

Tuesday, 27 April 2010

The reception in Pontian...

"Happiness isn't something you experience; it's something you remember..." - Oscar Levant

The rombongan from KL stayed for two nights at the water chalets at Tanjung Piai. The first night we had a small feast with home-cooked food and later that night the men had fun in a fishing competition. But then the catch was not as much as the shouts and laughter we heard throughout the night. The resort is comfortable. At night the weather was cool and windy.

The second night after coming back from the kenduri at the groom's house in Pontian, we had a family dinner at Tg. Piai Seafood Restaurant. I was having high fever and sore throat and missed enjoying the chilli crabs, butter prawns, sweet sour garupas and fried squids. Later, the men continued with the fishing competition, the ladies gathered in their rooms and talked until the wee hours in the morning...

(The happy couple on the Pelamin)
(The elegant reception area for the bride's family)
(Cake cutting by the Pengantin Baru)

Saturday, 17 April 2010

Sara & Fitri...


Thank you for those who came to my daughter’s wedding reception. I am honored. Your presence and gifts at the majlis made it much more of a festivity celebration and a reunion of long lost friends.''

For those who cannot make it, your well wishes are a blessing to the newly-wed couple. For those I have forgotten to invite (not intentionally), I am sorry but you are there in my heart, always.''

You will not receive any more wedding invitation from me as this is my last. (Ada 2 orang anak aje pun). But then it’s ok. My next wedding invitation will be for my grand-children pulak... Ha ha ha...

(The newly weds)'
(Happy birthday Sara)

A moment to stand back and look at life,
Pleased with this first day as man and wife,
Pleased with dreams that now have come to be.
Yet these are just the first few opening measures:

For you there is a symphony in store,
In which the years will ask of you much more,
Rewarding you with rich and varied pleasures.
So may this moment sing of joy and love,
The first of many that your hearts will move.'

© by Nicholas Gordon

Thursday, 15 April 2010

Purple Rain...

I never meant to cause you any sorrow,
I never meant to cause you any pain,
I only wanted to one time see you laughing,
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain....
Sara's Wedding Reception:
17 April 2010
Hotel Singgahsana
I am indebted to everyone who has been patient with me these past few weeks. I am trying my best to juggle time between office workloads and preparation for Sara's wedding reception, which I mostly left for dear hubby to handle. My only hope is that everything will go as planned on the big day.
I always wish for perfection, but I was not born perfect.

None of us were, and in my lifetime I cannot expect to achieve perfection. I believe that even if I could, it would be a very boring state. Believing that I can’t have it all is a result of my limited thinking that keeps me trapped in the belief that I can’t live the life of my dreams. I am so used to thinking that I have to make sacrifices, pay the price for having what I want. But the truth is, believe it or not, I can have it all.

Wallowing in the pain will not make me feel any better- probably worse if anything!

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

When disaster strikes...

"My mind is like a crazy monkey, frantically jumping from thought to thought..."

(My heart is filled with lighting and thunder)

When disaster strikes, a small problem becomes huge.

And lately we have been subject to scrutiny. Unnecessary activities have upset schedules and deadlines. Discussions without conclusions are a waste of time. Probably I have driven people crazy. But no-one can diminish who I am by their opinion of me. And, I should listen to all without judging, too.

If I am in control of my own inner world, there is no distraction I cannot conquer.

Friday, 9 April 2010

Nothing to celebrate…

"Even the sunniest days can have a few clouds in them..."

(The ladies in the department)

I think the key indicator of joyfulness is not good grades, work ethic, or IQ. I believe it's relationship...

Today is Friday. Though my day is full of meetings, I have to make time to go for lunch with the ladies. I promised to treat them at the Lanai Kijang. The food was good and the company was excellent. In return for the treat, they bought a cake for me.'

It was sunny and bright when we were having lunch. But now the world is so moody, the rain is pouring from the sky nonstop and river water is rising fast. I can see motorists taking shelter under the bridge, waiting for the rain to stop. And the traffic is at a standstill and horns are blaring loud.

(Chocolate moist cake for the boss)

Looking at the lousy weather outside, reminds me that my day today is really not that bad at all.

Thursday, 1 April 2010

Love is a journey...

Love is not a thing to understand,
Love is not a thing to feel,
Love is not a thing to give and receive,
Love is a thing only to become and eternally be…

(My grand-daughter, baby Hana @ 6 months old)

Happiness is the smile that appears on my face today. My happiness is described in so many different ways. So let's just hope when it finally comes, it will never go away…

My happiness is a journey, not a destination.