A sea of pain...

"In the end, the only thing you really own is your story..."

That day when I sent hubby to KL Sentral, we drove in silence.

Each of us was lost in confusion and total self bliss. Something I said must have hurt him. When we kissed goodbye, I could see the sadness in his eyes. For two days we lost touch. His last sms was before he boarded the plane to Dhaka.

That day when he came back from Dhaka, he sms, I was too tired to reply. I worked hard whole day trying not to think. The special audit on the department was disrupting our normal operations. The team stayed till late night but my mind was somewhere else.

That night, we stayed in bed holding each other in silence. Not even a million words could interpret the emotions of the moment. I love you very much too, yang...

When life becomes a sea of pain
And every moment agony
I must endure again, again,
It is a curse to have to be.

Even as I must go on,
You watch me helpless from the shore;
Sailing thus, though loved, alone,
I need you with me all the more.

(Nick G)